Tag: death

Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions

When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]

“Want a beer?” and Other Life-Saving Techniques

“Want a beer?” is what I’d hear if I walked into a Wisconsin friend’s house because it’s what is first said when terrible (and good) things are actively happening. I’m so demoralized and not surprised by all the news reports about American violence of late I’m going to talk about drinking alcohol. However, I’m not […]

The Murmuring at 4:40 AM

After Mom’s death, we lived in the first house we owned for another year. And, after her death, the house got right back to its old haunted routine. In our final year, and when now looking back, only three incidents really stick out. The first of the three occurred only days after my mom’s funeral. […]

Angels in a Not Yet Broken Phone

Five and a half years after being placed on hospice, my mom died in June 2017 at the age of 64. I organized the funeral and then the funeral happened and then I returned to our house and my husband David went to work and our house was just empty and quiet and I couldn’t […]

The Beyond

On the first night we viewed and then signed the papers to buy our Madison house, it felt haunted. When I went upstairs to turn off the hallway light, I felt the air thicken and move around me in an unnatural way. Thrilled, I ran downstairs, delighted that we were going to buy a haunted […]

The Outsiders

Our house activity climaxed with my beloved mom’s fight to defy death in her final months battling frontotemporal degeneration (FTD). New things started to happen which didn’t seem particularly paranormal as they involved tangible, organic creatures who were simply behaving oddly. Specifically, the animals started to mobilize. By this point, we had lived in our […]

Someone Never Stopped Coming Home

While it was still just David, Hemi Monster and I, our house, the first and only house for which we made mortgage payments, still felt busy. Even when any of us were by ourselves, we were never truly alone. That can be comforting and it can also be terrifying. On one afternoon, it was more […]

What David Saw

So we bought a haunted house in Madison, Wisconsin. A wise financial decision. Yet, throughout the four and a half years we lived there, I never saw anything. I heard things and I felt things but I never saw anything. At the same time, around the time we bought the house, my dad was about […]

Is This Chemical Or Am I Authentically Feeling This Calm/Honest

Meds. 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 A few weeks ago I did a DIY, 72 hour EEG which revealed that I was experiencing an impressive number of seizures though I had no idea of this. But that could be just another seizure. My current neurologist believes that a lot of the actions I take are due to “seizures”. Not […]

Don’t Move Into a Haunted House

I’ve been told that epileptics are prone to paranormal activity but I’d say most people are fair game if you move into a place with black handprints up and down the basement wall a la Blair Witch. My husband, our mastiff rescue Hemingway and I moved to Pittsburgh last year to fail at starting a […]

Ambulatory EEG Test #1 Result Day… I Am More Epileptic++ Than I Realized

Yesterday afternoon, my neurologist’s office called to tell me they downloaded the data from my first ambulatory EEG and, consequently, my neurologist wanted to see me ASAP. ASAP? Right away? Pronto? Okay. All right. Here we go. Okay. My heart dropped to the bottom of my guts. It’s not great when a medical professional calls […]