Wow. It’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything on this site which I pay $120+ to maintain and don’t have the time to use… But I love the five of you who read and then comment… it’s like a really specialized form of social media as you’re not on my other social media or […]
Tag: fear
Our House Is Trying to be Haunted: Fun New Things
So it seems our old new house is haunted as I originally feared/expected. First of all, spider webs are EVERYWHERE. I dropped a cap from a juice bottle accidentally and it fell down the basement stairs. I groaned and walked ALL THE WAY AROUND the banister to go down the stairs to pick it up […]
Struck, Hacked and Haunted… yup, It’s the Same-Old, Same-Old. How You?
For my 4 readers, I’ve long discussed the dangers of driving in Milwaukee. Last Friday, I was hit so hard my car was deemed totaled on the scene. It took insurance days and days and drama and stress but eventually they said the same. A driver had hit my car so hard in my passenger […]
The Dog Is Turning Out To Be a Little Creepy
For those who have kept vague track of what I’ve been ranting about lately… my husband and I adopted a incredibly-traumatized dog named June Carter Cash back in December 2021. She is cute. No doubt about it. But she is also the hottest of hot messes. Case in point, she ran full speed into the […]
Social Work Self
My dear Bird Best Friend made me a feature item for my “desk” at work. I asked her to make me one because it reminds me of exactly how I feel in my new job as a state social worker: Crazed Overwhelmed Trying desperately to do good and spread joy and wellness but… I will […]
Spring Fever!
Okay. So we are in World War III. That’s pretty surreal and yet… in a way, I can’t help but ask “What took us so long?” For people who argue we are not in World War III, more countries are presently engaged in the Russia vs Ukraine War than in any other war. Even little […]
The Revelations/Revolutions of June
There’s those days of self-pity where you just have to crash out Les Misérables’ I Dreamed a Dream on the piano and make your dog serve as unwilling witness. Speaking of the dog, June Carter Cash has just started eating on her own. This is a revelation. I came home from work late one night […]
Teaching a Dog to Be a Dog
I am building up the will to discuss neurological issues and how I quit my job this week but also… didn’t… but who cares about any of that! NOT ME! So this week I’m going to focus on my new understanding of what people mean when they say you need to teach a dog what […]
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all!
“Peace and love.” Easy to say but super difficult to feel. Yet, while I’m super tired out from an especially hellish month of work and also family drama and other life stuff… … I’m still doing my best to channel George Michael and hold on to some Christmas cheer. As such, I’m making a list […]
Dexters Are Motherflipping EVERWHERE!
I figured I needed to put together a light-hearted blog. So you consider a fictional serial killer “light”? Yes. Have you seen Dexter? In any case, I just got done reading twenty years of neurologists’ reports on me because I dumbly logged into my medical records database to find this lovely summary and… to read […]
Halloween APPROACHES: Dead Things Up North
Well, we had our mini break in northern Wisconsin and I had promised to report back on the Halloween situation there. Halloween Up North Status It wasn’t awesome. It didn’t rank on the Halloween meter. At the same time, Hayward, Wisconsin was largely rednecks so that was indeed terrifying (there were also super nice non-redneck […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
When Words Don’t Cover It,1990’s Microsoft Paint Can
Words fail. That kind of thinking is detrimental for a blog. In any case, I think my logistics job is affecting my not-job-related memory, soul and verbal speech… or else… it’s not the super stressful job and, rather, the FTD/ALS is kicking in. I hope not because my job does not offer health insurance, and […]
The World Has Lost Its Mind So Don’t Forget to Hollaback
Last week I read the local news headlines for Madison, Wisconsin (I live in Milwaukee which is like Madison on meth) as I apparently long ago signed up to receive these emails and rarely read them and… I honestly had to sit back on my heels and take a breath. Because it’s like the entire […]
Stigma: Epilepsy, Mental Illness and the Same Old Treatment
Reality is a fickle thing. If you don’t share the reality most others share, life is more difficult. Some people run with their “outsider” status and others fight to change and expand how their reality is seen and experienced. And still others do what they can to hide their different reality and quietly assimilate with […]
Brain Update: To Fall or Not to Fall
“Are you afraid of falling?” “No.” The neurological specialist nodded thoughtfully and I redirected my thoughts to reflect on how “Stephen Hawking” fell a lot in the beginning of the movie The Theory of Everything. ☹️ The reason for this rant is how I went to the dreaded appointment with an ALS specialist because I […]
The World Seems to Have an Attitude Problem
2020 has been shit. We’re all aware of this. It’s the one reality we all share. No matter who you are, you have been affected by coronavirus in some horrible way. And it’s going to continue into 2021 but at least it won’t be 2020. No, it will be something else. The same shit in […]
All Lab Rats Go To Heaven: An Epileptic Puts Her Foot Down
2020 has not been easy for anyone. After all, even those investors and tech CEOs who made a shit ton of money in 2020 off the public health crisis like war profiteers couldn’t just roll down to their local to get a beer or bottle of Cristal without assuming some risk. Tough times for us […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Right and Wrong, Lies and Truth
Watching the American election results pour in, slowly, and seeing HOW MANY AMERICANS VOTED (yay!) and how all the votes have caused those counting the votes to need more time to tally them… as expected… but also seeing how many people voted for what Trump represents… it sadly surprised me. The Trump folks said “Wait […]
Brain Wars!!! 