“Peace and love.” Easy to say but super difficult to feel. Yet, while I’m super tired out from an especially hellish month of work and also family drama and other life stuff… … I’m still doing my best to channel George Michael and hold on to some Christmas cheer. As such, I’m making a list […]
Tag: health crisis
My Own Private Shit Show: The Art of Coping
This week’s blog is focused on the events of my daily life and how I’m using perspective to prevent them from driving me completely insane. Letting Your Car Go We paid off our car. Which means we’ve given it permission to completely fall apart. You’re free, Marshmallow. While a mechanic was trying to figure out […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
When Words Don’t Cover It,1990’s Microsoft Paint Can
Words fail. That kind of thinking is detrimental for a blog. In any case, I think my logistics job is affecting my not-job-related memory, soul and verbal speech… or else… it’s not the super stressful job and, rather, the FTD/ALS is kicking in. I hope not because my job does not offer health insurance, and […]
All Lab Rats Go To Heaven: An Epileptic Puts Her Foot Down
2020 has not been easy for anyone. After all, even those investors and tech CEOs who made a shit ton of money in 2020 off the public health crisis like war profiteers couldn’t just roll down to their local to get a beer or bottle of Cristal without assuming some risk. Tough times for us […]
Dead On My Feet 🦇😺 and I Hear the Four Horses Are Warming Up… Just in Case (Election 2020)
If you follow this little blog, you’ll know I coped with rather terrible medical news a few weeks ago by focusing on how this year I’d be hosting a Vampire’s Dinner Party on Halloween night. IT HAPPENED! This orphan finally used my parents’ Noritaki China dishware, glassware and silverware which years ago I salvaged from […]
The Man in the Moon 🎃 and Being a Libra♎️ in a Civil War
It’s probably not smart to stare at a full moon for five consecutive minutes without being equipped with mystical intention or having incantations in hand. Because the moon is a quietly influential celestial body. Yet, last night I simply couldn’t look away, feeling safe and uncharacteristically warm inside our shitty apartment. And the moon wasn’t […]
Hell Today
I’m not sure if anyone else thinks “Have I gone too far?” as much as I do in regard to really insignificantly small actions. But I do enjoy the thought of my former keyboard’s space bar being in the ninth circle of hell. I never let my inability to draw hold me back either. Yeah, […]
When Life Gives You Lemons You Smile and Say “Thanks I Hate You Sometimes You’re a Jerk”
Right. With everything that has happened and which is actively happening, it seems my weak body is simply giving up. And my mind is absolutely disgusted with it. Watching “The Greatest Events of World War II in Color” on Netflix not only gives me the chills because we can explicitly see history repeating itself in […]
Dog or Gremlin
Tuesday marked the 13th year my husband and I have been legally married. Through thick and thin, we have remained married. And now we are older. I should be a writer for Hallmark, I know. And, once we thought about it, since we dated for 5-6 years, we have been together FORFUCKINGEVER. Love him. But […]
Networking Epileptic on Edge of Death Feeling Genuinely Cared For
Woohoo! Today I had my appointment with the new neurologist who I was only able to see thanks to a friend who pulled in a favor with a prominent neurologist who then made the connection and… networking may not get me employment but it got me the best neurologist I’ve had in perhaps forever! And […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Weakness, Witches and Signs of the Time
I’m not able to leave the house much because I have bad lungs. I am still in the revolution, as my friend refers to it, but I’m also living in a time of coronavirus like most other humans on earth and, since I’m more susceptible to the virus because of my bad lungs, I’m staying […]
“Is the American Health System That Bad?” Asked my Scottish/Not Scottish Friends. “Well, It Depends Who You Are.”
My husband David and I lived in Edinburgh, Scotland 2007-2010. Since his mom is 100% Scottish (though she resides in America but not in this photo because she came to visit us when we lived in Scotland), her family still lived there and we were therefore able to spend time with them. One time we […]
Brain Wars!!! 