Hello to my four readers! Are you still alive? Am I? Do we all still have Wi-Fi? If you’re in any of the places which has suffered a devastating tornado or hurricane or blizzard or war or uprising, or if you live in Milwaukee proper… you may not now have life or internet access. If […]
Tag: loss
Joy Divided and Halloween Rising ⚡️💔⚡️
Wow. It’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything on this site which I pay $120+ to maintain and don’t have the time to use… But I love the five of you who read and then comment… it’s like a really specialized form of social media as you’re not on my other social media or […]
Working Hard But Not Yet Playing Hard…
Well. A few weeks ago, I for the first time had a chance to engage in reflective practice – aka had the extra brain space to really think about what I was actively doing – and found myself feeling surprised I was driving such far distances in my social worker visits with my members/cases/clients/people. And […]
Not Everyone “Gets” Grief (ask our dog)
Right. So it’s the Olympics now and I’m super into them. I thought I was the only one but my friend Haven is also super into them and she doesn’t even remotely seem like the type of person who would be. (I don’t think Haven reads my blog which is good because I definitely just […]
Have the Circus Pick Me Up: A Holiday Tale
I’ve found another career path: the circus. It’s not a huge surprise as I’m from Baraboo, Wisconsin, which is known as “Circus Town, USA” due to it being the home of the Ringling Brothers and Barnum and Bailey Circus. Maybe your grandmother didn’t take you and your cousins to the circus every summer but mine […]
I AM NOT YET DEAD + SHEEP! 🐑
Holy cats! There’s been a gap in my blog posting! The reason is… well, let me use a little MATH: Variable One: I have moved my husband and I from our apartment to our house (I packed all our things, labeled all the boxes, booked the movers, was there for the movers and helped the […]
Well… Happy Holidays and half flags…
I live in Milwaukee, Wisconsin which has been making headlines lately for terrible reasons. Specifically, a person plowed their SUV through a holiday parade in a Milwaukee suburb, murdering 6 people and hurting over 60 individuals – many in critical condition and hospitalized. From talking with beloved family members from my three families (husband’s, my […]
To Mastiff or Not To Mastiff
My epilepsy is stretching… Uh-oh. The fact that I’m aware of it stirring is alarming because it’s difficult to do under the cloud of medication I take to keep it still so, when I can sense its movement… I used to tell friends I was “happy” about having epilepsy because it served as a kind […]
So This Week Happened…
It’s been a rough week. Earlier, I found out a dear friend died in a motorcycle accident. A utility van crossed the center line and, by doing so, ended her life. It was sudden and still feels unreal and… irritating. Like, I am super irritated about this. Not fair. Not cool and I don’t want […]
Childhood Rediscovery: Find Your Magic
Holy cats, it’s happening. 😻 I didn’t know if I’d make it here. But this evening my husband and I are driving up north to spend a couple nights at a magical place I long ago believed I had made up in my mind. But it’s real! ✨✨ My entire life I have asked people […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
Get It Out: Art Saves
I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
Hey Brain Wars Subscribers… Got a Minute? 😺
TOMORROW (THURSDAY 3/3/21) IS PITCH MADNESS! Otherwise known at #PITMAD. And I am once again pitching my graphic memoir WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU WEIRD AT PARTIES. UPDATE: Thank you so much for your help! Special shout out to Naomi, Gabi, Meredith and Jesse. Here are tomorrow’s pitches: #1 Diagnosed w epilepsy at age […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
😫? Escape With Me to Spain: Misadventures in Málaga
You never know when a grief attack will hit. Yesterday I had a full-blown, out-of-left-field grief attack when listening to a song I always listen to but, for whatever reason, when the song lyrics came to this certain part yesterday… I completely lost it. It’s like all the oxygen was sucked out of my body […]
It’s My Birthday and I’m in Space and Won’t Be Able to Make It This Year
My birthday is this week or… technically, it’s at the very beginning of next week. For the record, it’s 10-4… you know, like in the police code. In other words, “OKAY”. I was once in the back of a police car and they said “10-4” and I said, “That’s my birthday!” I love birthdays. And […]
Sometimes You Just Have to Take a Day or Two
Amiright?😺 And if that doesn’t fix what’s wrong you need to move to more extreme actions. I’m currently in between the two stages. And, as long as I’m asking questions, I’ll also query: does anyone else feel like they’re living two lives at once? When I hear the phrase “two lives at once” I first […]
Latest EEG Produced “Unexpected” Results
I started this blog last spring after experiencing my first ambulatory 72 hour EEG. Accordingly, this entry provides some updates for the health tests I’ve discussed here in previous posts and also includes my proposed take-it-into-my-own-hands solution. In addition, it presents a reminder that you never know what you’re going to get when trying new […]
Mice and Men and the Rest of Us
Today in Quarantine Life and the Search for Meaning, Purpose and Income, I’m reflecting on my tragic history with fish as pets and it’s impeding me from buying another one. Now that Wisconsin is again “open,” despite the state setting consecutive daily records on the number of new coronavirus cases, I’m again considering buying a […]
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