Wow. It’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything on this site which I pay $120+ to maintain and don’t have the time to use… But I love the five of you who read and then comment… it’s like a really specialized form of social media as you’re not on my other social media or […]
Tag: depression
You’ve Been Too Much, Summer: Halloween, Save Us All
I think the last time I enjoyed summer was back when I was a kid. Back then, it was all waterparks and swimming pools and fireworks and staying over at friends’ houses and running around in the dark of our neighborhoods playing Ghosts in the Graveyard, Witches Come Out Tonight and other shocking children’s games. […]
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all!
“Peace and love.” Easy to say but super difficult to feel. Yet, while I’m super tired out from an especially hellish month of work and also family drama and other life stuff… … I’m still doing my best to channel George Michael and hold on to some Christmas cheer. As such, I’m making a list […]
Well… Happy Holidays and half flags…
I live in Milwaukee, Wisconsin which has been making headlines lately for terrible reasons. Specifically, a person plowed their SUV through a holiday parade in a Milwaukee suburb, murdering 6 people and hurting over 60 individuals – many in critical condition and hospitalized. From talking with beloved family members from my three families (husband’s, my […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
Bullies, Minions and Balance in the Universe
Last Saturday it was really nice outside… the first genuinely nice day of Spring 2021. So the boy and I decided to venture out to see if we could sit outside and grab some food. We parked and walked around and then… encountered a picnic bench of drunk people who were all staring at us […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Right and Wrong, Lies and Truth
Watching the American election results pour in, slowly, and seeing HOW MANY AMERICANS VOTED (yay!) and how all the votes have caused those counting the votes to need more time to tally them… as expected… but also seeing how many people voted for what Trump represents… it sadly surprised me. The Trump folks said “Wait […]
Security Bot, Ken, Having a Hard Time Like the Rest of Us
I think our security bot Ken is feeling insecure. He can join the club. Or maybe it’s just Monday again and, while reliable, its arrival doesn’t help morale. It’s especially weird because I don’t even have a “regular weekday work schedule” so I have no idea what my problem with this day is. Last week […]
Monday Morning Blues and Brights
I remember when it would be Sunday night and I was short and I’d be watching TV and I’d resent seeing Jessica Fletcher’s dumb face on Murder She Wrote because it meant that the next morning it would be Monday and school would start once again. I didn’t have any significant problems at school beyond […]
Networking Epileptic on Edge of Death Feeling Genuinely Cared For
Woohoo! Today I had my appointment with the new neurologist who I was only able to see thanks to a friend who pulled in a favor with a prominent neurologist who then made the connection and… networking may not get me employment but it got me the best neurologist I’ve had in perhaps forever! And […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Dirty Winged Creatures
I was diagnosed with chronic asthma yesterday. Good timing, eh? What with the shifty global pandemic continuing to wreak havoc on the entire world, whether people want to believe it or not, it’s not an excellent time to have asthma. And, not only that, but I may be on my way to acute bronchitis once […]
Angels in a Not Yet Broken Phone
Five and a half years after being placed on hospice, my mom died in June 2017 at the age of 64. I organized the funeral and then the funeral happened and then I returned to our house and my husband David went to work and our house was just empty and quiet and I couldn’t […]
Lacking the Energy to Rhyme
UGH. Did anyone else wake up just feeling zapped today? As in… extra zapped? I stayed up “late” (I’m old so “late” is now really not that late at all) watching the Phantom of the Opera 25th Anniversary show on YouTube as it was somehow recommended to me and oh my cats I will never […]
Angry Bunnies Drowning
I fell into a pit of ambivalence last night. Join the club, yeah. I know. Maybe it’s the social isolation but I really can’t imagine that’s it because I rarely leave the house so not much in my daily empath life has changed and… I stopped watching the news. So why the sudden Pit of […]
Brain Wars!!! 