I’m a vampire every year but mortality felt inappropriately close this weekend. But, before the brush with death, October was fun. It’s the best month and it didn’t disappoint. We dressed up more than we have in the past few years and that was fun. Also, Halloween seemed to go on and on because Milwaukee […]
Tag: medicine
Social Work Self
My dear Bird Best Friend made me a feature item for my “desk” at work. I asked her to make me one because it reminds me of exactly how I feel in my new job as a state social worker: Crazed Overwhelmed Trying desperately to do good and spread joy and wellness but… I will […]
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all!
“Peace and love.” Easy to say but super difficult to feel. Yet, while I’m super tired out from an especially hellish month of work and also family drama and other life stuff… … I’m still doing my best to channel George Michael and hold on to some Christmas cheer. As such, I’m making a list […]
Dexters Are Motherflipping EVERWHERE!
I figured I needed to put together a light-hearted blog. So you consider a fictional serial killer “light”? Yes. Have you seen Dexter? In any case, I just got done reading twenty years of neurologists’ reports on me because I dumbly logged into my medical records database to find this lovely summary and… to read […]
Halloween APPROACHES: Dead Things Up North
Well, we had our mini break in northern Wisconsin and I had promised to report back on the Halloween situation there. Halloween Up North Status It wasn’t awesome. It didn’t rank on the Halloween meter. At the same time, Hayward, Wisconsin was largely rednecks so that was indeed terrifying (there were also super nice non-redneck […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
Maybe I’ll Have a Happy Electrified Ending
This blog is a little late this week because I spent Monday and Tuesday doing “real” work aka editing a grant application (for a friend but she paid me my rate and it was the closest thing I’ve done to “real” work in a long time). So that felt good. That update is for those […]
Monday: Electrodes, Needles, Nerves, Static, a Bed and Four Men and an Epileptic Crammed in a Tiny Room
I’m not going to lie. That 👆 sounds like a very messed up porn. Gross. Which is why I don’t feel a lot of people could do an EMG test. Because if you’re not “good with” needles, or have an issue with claustrophobia or with being electrocuted, or being essentially naked on a bed in […]
Curs-ed and Coping
Yeah, so it’s that really terrible time of year for me. The Death Anniversary time of year… oddly, my family died or were born in the first couple weeks of March. And my crisis of confidence continues as I was recently told for the nth time I’m “overqualified” and “will leave after a month” if […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
A Prison of Possibilities
Welcome to 2021… in risk of overusing the same material, this IT Crowd gif perfectly represents how I’m feeling about 2021: Yesterday, I sat down to take a break in my Monday routine which involves doing last week’s laundry and the weekly domestic hard-clean of our apartment. I figure that, if I’m not making any […]
HIT AND RUN BUT STILL NOT DEAD 💪
Well Monday didn’t go as I had hoped. Does Monday ever go as anyone hopes? I dropped my husband off at work and soon after set out to Oak Creek for a long awaited appointment with my neurologist. I was dreading it as I haven’t seen her since she ordered all the tests and I […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Music Is Medicine But Accessing It Has Been a Real Lifelong Trick
This week I’ve had to take a mental health break and employ my “music is medicine” mantra. At the same time, taking a break from job applications and money-scheming has caused me to reflect and marvel at the distance my same-age peers (the Oregon Trail generation) and I have traveled in regard to technology because […]
Right and Wrong, Lies and Truth
Watching the American election results pour in, slowly, and seeing HOW MANY AMERICANS VOTED (yay!) and how all the votes have caused those counting the votes to need more time to tally them… as expected… but also seeing how many people voted for what Trump represents… it sadly surprised me. The Trump folks said “Wait […]
When You Get the Results You Really Really Really Didn’t Want
For those of you reading this, I want to thank you for being a small audience for my survival memoir writing. In contrast to social media, having a blog is like having an audience who mostly want to be there. I’m sure a few of you just logged off because you’re all ohshit I can’t […]
Sometimes You Just Have to Take a Day or Two
Amiright?😺 And if that doesn’t fix what’s wrong you need to move to more extreme actions. I’m currently in between the two stages. And, as long as I’m asking questions, I’ll also query: does anyone else feel like they’re living two lives at once? When I hear the phrase “two lives at once” I first […]
Latest EEG Produced “Unexpected” Results
I started this blog last spring after experiencing my first ambulatory 72 hour EEG. Accordingly, this entry provides some updates for the health tests I’ve discussed here in previous posts and also includes my proposed take-it-into-my-own-hands solution. In addition, it presents a reminder that you never know what you’re going to get when trying new […]
Life After
My mind is taking things into its own hands lately. I think this because on Tuesday I had some epileptic twitches in my face and through my fingers which aren’t supposed to happen. The electricity is breaking free. Oi. So I think my mind took care of that because I slept so deeply Tuesday night […]
Hell Today
I’m not sure if anyone else thinks “Have I gone too far?” as much as I do in regard to really insignificantly small actions. But I do enjoy the thought of my former keyboard’s space bar being in the ninth circle of hell. I never let my inability to draw hold me back either. Yeah, […]
Brain Wars!!! 