Big picture, making the decision to keep or sell my dad’s Badger football season tickets after he died shouldn’t have been a big deal. Yet, navigating grief is a lot like that scene from The Jerk where Steve Martin’s character says he doesn’t need anyone or anything. My dad’s Badgers seats are a lot like […]
Tag: anger
Struck, Hacked and Haunted… yup, It’s the Same-Old, Same-Old. How You?
For my 4 readers, I’ve long discussed the dangers of driving in Milwaukee. Last Friday, I was hit so hard my car was deemed totaled on the scene. It took insurance days and days and drama and stress but eventually they said the same. A driver had hit my car so hard in my passenger […]
So This Week Happened…
It’s been a rough week. Earlier, I found out a dear friend died in a motorcycle accident. A utility van crossed the center line and, by doing so, ended her life. It was sudden and still feels unreal and… irritating. Like, I am super irritated about this. Not fair. Not cool and I don’t want […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
I Am Batman
Little known fact that I am Batman. Though you may have had some clues given my being an orphan and certainly also having some unresolved issues in regard to the whole “being an orphan” thing. Yet, my lack of extreme wealth may have tipped you off that I’m not really the crime-fighting playboy cape-wielding superhero. […]
The World Has Lost Its Mind So Don’t Forget to Hollaback
Last week I read the local news headlines for Madison, Wisconsin (I live in Milwaukee which is like Madison on meth) as I apparently long ago signed up to receive these emails and rarely read them and… I honestly had to sit back on my heels and take a breath. Because it’s like the entire […]
Get It Out: Art Saves
I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
If I Was Rich, I’d Have To Get My Cardio Elsewhere: A Shoveling Tale
Milwaukee got pummeled by snow this weekend (church was canceled even) which meant the weekend was largely spent shoveling. I like shoveling because it provides me with cardio and the gratification that comes with putting work in and having it pay off. Immediately. Our apartment is on a corner so, as we are to shovel […]
The World Seems to Have an Attitude Problem
2020 has been shit. We’re all aware of this. It’s the one reality we all share. No matter who you are, you have been affected by coronavirus in some horrible way. And it’s going to continue into 2021 but at least it won’t be 2020. No, it will be something else. The same shit in […]
😫? Escape With Me to Spain: Misadventures in Málaga
You never know when a grief attack will hit. Yesterday I had a full-blown, out-of-left-field grief attack when listening to a song I always listen to but, for whatever reason, when the song lyrics came to this certain part yesterday… I completely lost it. It’s like all the oxygen was sucked out of my body […]
Hell Today
I’m not sure if anyone else thinks “Have I gone too far?” as much as I do in regard to really insignificantly small actions. But I do enjoy the thought of my former keyboard’s space bar being in the ninth circle of hell. I never let my inability to draw hold me back either. Yeah, […]
When Life Gives You Lemons You Smile and Say “Thanks I Hate You Sometimes You’re a Jerk”
Right. With everything that has happened and which is actively happening, it seems my weak body is simply giving up. And my mind is absolutely disgusted with it. Watching “The Greatest Events of World War II in Color” on Netflix not only gives me the chills because we can explicitly see history repeating itself in […]
Remembering Nice Interactions in Scottish Society After Poor Interactions in Wisconsin Society
Usually, if I’m feeling bright and cheery, I try to gather it all up to summon the nerve and will to go out and talk to people. I’m remembering this because I had some pretty upsetting interactions with humans recently as, due to a family emergency, I found myself in a small town in Wisconsin […]
Angels in a Not Yet Broken Phone
Five and a half years after being placed on hospice, my mom died in June 2017 at the age of 64. I organized the funeral and then the funeral happened and then I returned to our house and my husband David went to work and our house was just empty and quiet and I couldn’t […]
Brain Wars!!! 