Hello to my four readers! Are you still alive? Am I? Do we all still have Wi-Fi? If you’re in any of the places which has suffered a devastating tornado or hurricane or blizzard or war or uprising, or if you live in Milwaukee proper… you may not now have life or internet access. If […]
Tag: trauma
Joy Divided and Halloween Rising ⚡️💔⚡️
Wow. It’s been a minute since I’ve posted anything on this site which I pay $120+ to maintain and don’t have the time to use… But I love the five of you who read and then comment… it’s like a really specialized form of social media as you’re not on my other social media or […]
You’ve Been Too Much, Summer: Halloween, Save Us All
I think the last time I enjoyed summer was back when I was a kid. Back then, it was all waterparks and swimming pools and fireworks and staying over at friends’ houses and running around in the dark of our neighborhoods playing Ghosts in the Graveyard, Witches Come Out Tonight and other shocking children’s games. […]
Struck, Hacked and Haunted… yup, It’s the Same-Old, Same-Old. How You?
For my 4 readers, I’ve long discussed the dangers of driving in Milwaukee. Last Friday, I was hit so hard my car was deemed totaled on the scene. It took insurance days and days and drama and stress but eventually they said the same. A driver had hit my car so hard in my passenger […]
The Dog Is Turning Out To Be a Little Creepy
For those who have kept vague track of what I’ve been ranting about lately… my husband and I adopted a incredibly-traumatized dog named June Carter Cash back in December 2021. She is cute. No doubt about it. But she is also the hottest of hot messes. Case in point, she ran full speed into the […]
Social Work Self
My dear Bird Best Friend made me a feature item for my “desk” at work. I asked her to make me one because it reminds me of exactly how I feel in my new job as a state social worker: Crazed Overwhelmed Trying desperately to do good and spread joy and wellness but… I will […]
June the Untouchable Shadow
We are on the brink of nuclear war And the other day my mentally ill formerly favorite uncle choked on a piece of meat in his mental institution and SHOCKER no one noticed for 20 minutes and so now he is in another hospital on ICU. And it’s also DEATH TIME for me as a […]
The Olympics of Every Day
Another week of being alive! Huzzah! That opening makes it sound like this week’s blog post is going to be exploding with good news and joy. I’ll do my best. Lately, my neurological realities have been on my mind and I’m trying to feel really grateful for the time I have. That’s not meant to […]
Teaching a Dog to Be a Dog
I am building up the will to discuss neurological issues and how I quit my job this week but also… didn’t… but who cares about any of that! NOT ME! So this week I’m going to focus on my new understanding of what people mean when they say you need to teach a dog what […]
Hold on… hold on…
This week I’m identifying most and best with my broken car fob and our traumatized, terrified yet indignant and supremely weird new dog. This is because recently I hit a wall due to the rut of our present existence and other factors. When you’re feeling low, it’s good practice to count your blessings. There is […]
Covid Negative and, hey Worst Week, MEET JUNE CARTER CASH! 😻
Status Update: Firstly, I’m still COVID negative and now so is my husband! We are both clear! David never had any symptoms and… I never had COVID so… quarantining in our small little open plan house was kind of surreal. When he FINALLY received his test result (3.5 days after his PCR test), we had […]
COVID and the Saddest Dog in the World
COVID has become a regular part of daily life. We live in a time of plague. Putting on a mask when leaving the house has become commonplace. Not seeing friends and family has become normal. My innate desire to feel repulsion when seeing a large group of people has been allowed to flourish along with […]
Have the Circus Pick Me Up: A Holiday Tale
I’ve found another career path: the circus. It’s not a huge surprise as I’m from Baraboo, Wisconsin, which is known as “Circus Town, USA” due to it being the home of the Ringling Brothers and Barnum and Bailey Circus. Maybe your grandmother didn’t take you and your cousins to the circus every summer but mine […]
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all!
“Peace and love.” Easy to say but super difficult to feel. Yet, while I’m super tired out from an especially hellish month of work and also family drama and other life stuff… … I’m still doing my best to channel George Michael and hold on to some Christmas cheer. As such, I’m making a list […]
Happy Halloween, Everyone! The 12th and 13th Monster(s)!
I grew up in the Lutheran church and so today for me is also Reformation Day. Personally, I enjoy church holidays which celebrate some good old-fashioned breaking from the empire and its church. I was going to insert some Star Wars characters here but people tend to get testy about religion so I’ll just let […]
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
When Words Don’t Cover It,1990’s Microsoft Paint Can
Words fail. That kind of thinking is detrimental for a blog. In any case, I think my logistics job is affecting my not-job-related memory, soul and verbal speech… or else… it’s not the super stressful job and, rather, the FTD/ALS is kicking in. I hope not because my job does not offer health insurance, and […]
Ask a T-Rex
Really though. What the hell can you do. I asked my friend Rex this question. His answer now and always is: “Kill and eat it.” While effective as a comprehensive life approach back in prehistoric times, this was not the suggestion I needed which would help me now in these modern times. Also, I’m pretty […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
Brain Wars!!! 