I’m not sure if anyone else thinks “Have I gone too far?” as much as I do in regard to really insignificantly small actions. But I do enjoy the thought of my former keyboard’s space bar being in the ninth circle of hell. I never let my inability to draw hold me back either. Yeah, […]
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Brain Scans and Your Average Medical Male Monster
Holy cats. This blog post focuses on the monster who was my former neurologist and THE MONSTER CALLED ME WHEN I WAS WRITING THE FIRST DRAFT. Therefore, I have some LIVE ACTION news in this blog post. Exciting! But I’m getting ahead of myself. Right. So I’m an epileptic. Been epileptic since I was twelve. […]
Networking Epileptic on Edge of Death Feeling Genuinely Cared For
Woohoo! Today I had my appointment with the new neurologist who I was only able to see thanks to a friend who pulled in a favor with a prominent neurologist who then made the connection and… networking may not get me employment but it got me the best neurologist I’ve had in perhaps forever! And […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Coping: a Frustrating Revolutionary Reality
Yesterday, my husband David received a NEGATIVE! result for the free coronavirus test we took last Friday. So that’s great. However, since we took our tests at the same time at the same place… it felt weird I did not receive my test result when he did. First my sense of humor and #1 coping […]
Remembering Nice Interactions in Scottish Society After Poor Interactions in Wisconsin Society
Usually, if I’m feeling bright and cheery, I try to gather it all up to summon the nerve and will to go out and talk to people. I’m remembering this because I had some pretty upsetting interactions with humans recently as, due to a family emergency, I found myself in a small town in Wisconsin […]
Tired (Wild Animals Screaming into an Invisible Mic)
I’ve been running in place for ten years. And I just realized it. In books, I sometimes see authors compare “a cake walk” to playing the old board game Candy Land. As in, both are smooth/easy/no problem. Well. Candy Land is in fact a brutal board game. Now that I think of it… cake walks […]
Back in Milwaukee, Paranormal Activity Outpaced by Criminal Activity
After a year in Pittsburgh, we moved back to Milwaukee and rented a pest/rodent-infested apartment in a kind-of-bad neighborhood which always has car alarms going off and which also comes with the creepiest daily interruption: The ice cream cart was novel when we first moved in and then it lost its charm. There is a […]
The Crash
My mom was given six months to live in January, 2012, diagnosed with moderate brain atrophy and frontotemporal degeneration (FTD). In September 2017, since she was still trucking but she could no longer speak, walk or perform tasks independently ALL WHILE BEING FULLY AWARE OF ALL THIS #mostcruelillness, she required very individualized care which facilities […]
Someone Never Stopped Coming Home
While it was still just David, Hemi Monster and I, our house, the first and only house for which we made mortgage payments, still felt busy. Even when any of us were by ourselves, we were never truly alone. That can be comforting and it can also be terrifying. On one afternoon, it was more […]
What David Saw
So we bought a haunted house in Madison, Wisconsin. A wise financial decision. Yet, throughout the four and a half years we lived there, I never saw anything. I heard things and I felt things but I never saw anything. At the same time, around the time we bought the house, my dad was about […]
Our First House Came With a Haunted Mirror We Didn’t Want
In late September 2014, David and I bought our first house. Since we had very little money and were also looking for “character,” we had been house-hunting for quite awhile. Yet, we had an amazing realtor who specialized in “hard cases” and she got us in to view a lovely old house on the very […]
Angry Bunnies Drowning
I fell into a pit of ambivalence last night. Join the club, yeah. I know. Maybe it’s the social isolation but I really can’t imagine that’s it because I rarely leave the house so not much in my daily empath life has changed and… I stopped watching the news. So why the sudden Pit of […]
Brain Wars!!! 