Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Tag: fear
Right and Wrong, Lies and Truth
Watching the American election results pour in, slowly, and seeing HOW MANY AMERICANS VOTED (yay!) and how all the votes have caused those counting the votes to need more time to tally them… as expected… but also seeing how many people voted for what Trump represents… it sadly surprised me. The Trump folks said “Wait […]
MENTAL HEALTH Requires … Listening to Bauhaus in My Creepy Basement with My Friend Chair
I AM FINALLY GETTING A CHEST X-RAY AND ALSO BLOODWORK! 🙌 Wooooohooooooo!!! I am so old and decrepit I regard this as a major accomplishment. I remember when winning an award or finishing my degree gave me the same sense of accomplishment. It’s a bit sad but… how does it go? Life is what happens […]
Detached: Why This Epileptic Will Never Again Do Another Ambulatory EEG
Right. So I’ve had epilepsy since I was 12. That last sentence makes it sound like going from “no epilepsy” to “epilepsy” was a smooth transition… it was not. In any case, as an epileptic (who hid her epilepsy for twenty-five years out of fear of people’s rampant inability to cope with fear and who […]
Looking for a Good time? Me Too.
Wellity. Got my MRI results. Ugh… lots of white matter lesions 😬 BUT there aren’t any more lesions than there were in 2015, when I had my last brain scan. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo… I received the nicest call from my new neurologist’s nurse who I speak to almost daily and… well, it’s comforting that we don’t know […]
Some Americans Suddenly Realize Coronavirus Is Not Fake News
My husband and I went to get tested for coronavirus a few weeks ago at a south side National Guard testing site located in the parking lot of a Milwaukee community job center. The attraction was how this site was free, a drive-thru and also did not require an appointment. And it was a remarkably […]
Angels in a Not Yet Broken Phone
Five and a half years after being placed on hospice, my mom died in June 2017 at the age of 64. I organized the funeral and then the funeral happened and then I returned to our house and my husband David went to work and our house was just empty and quiet and I couldn’t […]
The Beyond
On the first night we viewed and then signed the papers to buy our Madison house, it felt haunted. When I went upstairs to turn off the hallway light, I felt the air thicken and move around me in an unnatural way. Thrilled, I ran downstairs, delighted that we were going to buy a haunted […]
Someone Never Stopped Coming Home
While it was still just David, Hemi Monster and I, our house, the first and only house for which we made mortgage payments, still felt busy. Even when any of us were by ourselves, we were never truly alone. That can be comforting and it can also be terrifying. On one afternoon, it was more […]
Yahtzee! Finding Medication That Doesn’t Make It Worse
Society has not been kind to epileptics. Society is often a psychotic bully so it’s no surprise. In earlier times, epileptics were worshipped/feared because people thought the seizures were due to gods speaking through a human and, being human, all a human could do was seize in response. But gods didn’t want to talk to […]
Ambulatory EEG Test #1 Result Day… I Am More Epileptic++ Than I Realized
Yesterday afternoon, my neurologist’s office called to tell me they downloaded the data from my first ambulatory EEG and, consequently, my neurologist wanted to see me ASAP. ASAP? Right away? Pronto? Okay. All right. Here we go. Okay. My heart dropped to the bottom of my guts. It’s not great when a medical professional calls […]
Brain Wars!!! 