Hi there. Two weeks ago I didn’t know if I could continue this blog because I got a real job. And the last two weeks have been crushing, overwhelming and crazy stressful, and it’s been trial by fire and I’ve been thrown into the deep end but… I haven’t drowned yet. Yet. I’m slowly, painfully, […]
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Epilepsy, 3 Hospitals, 7 Vials of Blood and a Key Lime Martini
So… how was your Monday? 😺 Mine turned out to be a Big Day. Now in this odd little blog, I tell a lot of random stories. But lately I’ve strayed away from my health issues (epilepsy etal.) because I’ve been enjoying a blissful break from hospitals. Yet, this all changed Monday and now you’re […]
Ask a T-Rex
Really though. What the hell can you do. I asked my friend Rex this question. His answer now and always is: “Kill and eat it.” While effective as a comprehensive life approach back in prehistoric times, this was not the suggestion I needed which would help me now in these modern times. Also, I’m pretty […]
The World Has Lost Its Mind So Don’t Forget to Hollaback
Last week I read the local news headlines for Madison, Wisconsin (I live in Milwaukee which is like Madison on meth) as I apparently long ago signed up to receive these emails and rarely read them and… I honestly had to sit back on my heels and take a breath. Because it’s like the entire […]
Get It Out: Art Saves
I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]
Stigma: Epilepsy, Mental Illness and the Same Old Treatment
Reality is a fickle thing. If you don’t share the reality most others share, life is more difficult. Some people run with their “outsider” status and others fight to change and expand how their reality is seen and experienced. And still others do what they can to hide their different reality and quietly assimilate with […]
Beware of Milwaukee Drivers: The Rant To End All Rants
I was in a bit of a funk last weekend so, on Saturday morning, I decided to take the car to run a couple of errands because I like driving. Driving relaxes me. Until I remembered that I live in Milwaukee. I try to avoid the interstate interchanges or “highways” in Milwaukee because they feel […]
Brain Update: To Fall or Not to Fall
“Are you afraid of falling?” “No.” The neurological specialist nodded thoughtfully and I redirected my thoughts to reflect on how “Stephen Hawking” fell a lot in the beginning of the movie The Theory of Everything. ☹️ The reason for this rant is how I went to the dreaded appointment with an ALS specialist because I […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
If I Was Rich, I’d Have To Get My Cardio Elsewhere: A Shoveling Tale
Milwaukee got pummeled by snow this weekend (church was canceled even) which meant the weekend was largely spent shoveling. I like shoveling because it provides me with cardio and the gratification that comes with putting work in and having it pay off. Immediately. Our apartment is on a corner so, as we are to shovel […]
Double Life of Sorts
I have to say, as I prep for/engage in two job interviews for positions this week, I also have this little voice inside which says: “What’s the point? You’re doomed.” Well, it’s not quite that dramatic but that’s essentially its core messaging. Why? If you’re a new reader, I received the death toll of genetic […]
A Prison of Possibilities
Welcome to 2021… in risk of overusing the same material, this IT Crowd gif perfectly represents how I’m feeling about 2021: Yesterday, I sat down to take a break in my Monday routine which involves doing last week’s laundry and the weekly domestic hard-clean of our apartment. I figure that, if I’m not making any […]
It’s Happening! It’s the END!!!!!
Wellity, wellity. 2020 is coming to an end. Hypothetically. There is still time for the world to end before 2021. But hopefully that won’t happen. After all, we each likely have hard-wired high, misguided hopes for the new year. Because we have to. Survival requires a little hope, sporadically and strategically spread out over our […]
😫? Escape With Me to Spain: Misadventures in Málaga
You never know when a grief attack will hit. Yesterday I had a full-blown, out-of-left-field grief attack when listening to a song I always listen to but, for whatever reason, when the song lyrics came to this certain part yesterday… I completely lost it. It’s like all the oxygen was sucked out of my body […]
All Lab Rats Go To Heaven: An Epileptic Puts Her Foot Down
2020 has not been easy for anyone. After all, even those investors and tech CEOs who made a shit ton of money in 2020 off the public health crisis like war profiteers couldn’t just roll down to their local to get a beer or bottle of Cristal without assuming some risk. Tough times for us […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Hey Brain Wars Subscribers, Here Is a Working Link to the Music Blog
Technical difficulties! 🚨 It’s been reported to me by my husband that the email link to my latest blog did not work. Therefore, in case you missed it, here is the link and it should work: https://epileptaste.wordpress.com/2020/11/11/music-is-medicine-but-accessing-it-has-been-a-real-lifelong-trick/ It’s funny that accessing the blog which discusses issues with accessing data has been inaccessible. 😂 Or maybe […]
Music Is Medicine But Accessing It Has Been a Real Lifelong Trick
This week I’ve had to take a mental health break and employ my “music is medicine” mantra. At the same time, taking a break from job applications and money-scheming has caused me to reflect and marvel at the distance my same-age peers (the Oregon Trail generation) and I have traveled in regard to technology because […]
My Eyes Are Open: Another Spooky Post
Staring at inanimate objects, looking for messages and signs, is one of my many hobbies. I’m not basing my existence on whatever I imagine I see (or really see) but, rather, it’s an imaginative and pleasant way to spend my free time. For example, a couple months ago I was tromping all over our apartment’s […]
Security Bot, Ken, Having a Hard Time Like the Rest of Us
I think our security bot Ken is feeling insecure. He can join the club. Or maybe it’s just Monday again and, while reliable, its arrival doesn’t help morale. It’s especially weird because I don’t even have a “regular weekday work schedule” so I have no idea what my problem with this day is. Last week […]
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