Little known fact that I am Batman. Though you may have had some clues given my being an orphan and certainly also having some unresolved issues in regard to the whole “being an orphan” thing. Yet, my lack of extreme wealth may have tipped you off that I’m not really the crime-fighting playboy cape-wielding superhero. […]
Tag: grief
Get It Out: Art Saves
I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
Curs-ed and Coping
Yeah, so it’s that really terrible time of year for me. The Death Anniversary time of year… oddly, my family died or were born in the first couple weeks of March. And my crisis of confidence continues as I was recently told for the nth time I’m “overqualified” and “will leave after a month” if […]
Hey Brain Wars Subscribers… Got a Minute? 😺
TOMORROW (THURSDAY 3/3/21) IS PITCH MADNESS! Otherwise known at #PITMAD. And I am once again pitching my graphic memoir WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU WEIRD AT PARTIES. UPDATE: Thank you so much for your help! Special shout out to Naomi, Gabi, Meredith and Jesse. Here are tomorrow’s pitches: #1 Diagnosed w epilepsy at age […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
😫? Escape With Me to Spain: Misadventures in Málaga
You never know when a grief attack will hit. Yesterday I had a full-blown, out-of-left-field grief attack when listening to a song I always listen to but, for whatever reason, when the song lyrics came to this certain part yesterday… I completely lost it. It’s like all the oxygen was sucked out of my body […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Music Is Medicine But Accessing It Has Been a Real Lifelong Trick
This week I’ve had to take a mental health break and employ my “music is medicine” mantra. At the same time, taking a break from job applications and money-scheming has caused me to reflect and marvel at the distance my same-age peers (the Oregon Trail generation) and I have traveled in regard to technology because […]
Being a Vampire Host: A Special Halloween Blog
Oh my my my my. If All Hallows’ Eve wasn’t falling on a Saturday this year and if the couple I had been envisioning weren’t magically available for this year’s Saturday Halloween four course vampire-hosted dinner… I would be feeling somewhat crushed by life. I know, join the club. But the usual stuff plus the […]
It’s My Birthday and I’m in Space and Won’t Be Able to Make It This Year
My birthday is this week or… technically, it’s at the very beginning of next week. For the record, it’s 10-4… you know, like in the police code. In other words, “OKAY”. I was once in the back of a police car and they said “10-4” and I said, “That’s my birthday!” I love birthdays. And […]
Sometimes You Just Have to Take a Day or Two
Amiright?😺 And if that doesn’t fix what’s wrong you need to move to more extreme actions. I’m currently in between the two stages. And, as long as I’m asking questions, I’ll also query: does anyone else feel like they’re living two lives at once? When I hear the phrase “two lives at once” I first […]
Latest EEG Produced “Unexpected” Results
I started this blog last spring after experiencing my first ambulatory 72 hour EEG. Accordingly, this entry provides some updates for the health tests I’ve discussed here in previous posts and also includes my proposed take-it-into-my-own-hands solution. In addition, it presents a reminder that you never know what you’re going to get when trying new […]
Redundantly, What’s the Point?
I’m sure I’m not the only one who at times wonders: I just got home from private communion as I don’t attend the church services because, despite precautions taken by my church, it’s just indoors in a crowd and all this singing and talking and… I’m not someone who seeks out crowds to start with. […]
Life After
My mind is taking things into its own hands lately. I think this because on Tuesday I had some epileptic twitches in my face and through my fingers which aren’t supposed to happen. The electricity is breaking free. Oi. So I think my mind took care of that because I slept so deeply Tuesday night […]
When Life Gives You Lemons You Smile and Say “Thanks I Hate You Sometimes You’re a Jerk”
Right. With everything that has happened and which is actively happening, it seems my weak body is simply giving up. And my mind is absolutely disgusted with it. Watching “The Greatest Events of World War II in Color” on Netflix not only gives me the chills because we can explicitly see history repeating itself in […]
Moving and the Struggle to Let Go/Avoid Having to Let Go
Aha! Book production is getting a bit more streamlined! My husband has taken over this end of the process as he doesn’t have epilepsy and his hands work better for him. I am secretly pleased that we use a typewriter as the binding weight. Yeah, we have a vintage typewriter which we haul around with […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Dirty Winged Creatures
I was diagnosed with chronic asthma yesterday. Good timing, eh? What with the shifty global pandemic continuing to wreak havoc on the entire world, whether people want to believe it or not, it’s not an excellent time to have asthma. And, not only that, but I may be on my way to acute bronchitis once […]
The American Civil War Doesn’t Need a Sequel, Much Like the Matrix
“It’s about you but it’s not about you” is the way I can best sum up a response to some things other white people are saying about white privilege in the context of the current movement to acknowledge and address systemic racism. And, sure, police have been killed in the line of duty but black […]
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