This week’s blog is focused on the events of my daily life and how I’m using perspective to prevent them from driving me completely insane. Letting Your Car Go We paid off our car. Which means we’ve given it permission to completely fall apart. You’re free, Marshmallow. While a mechanic was trying to figure out […]
Tag: coping
The Darkness
There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]
Milwaukee Paranormal Conference! 👻
When my amazing, award-winning journalist/writer friend Tea (check out his latest book which I highly recommend: https://thebookselfblog.wordpress.com/category/tea-krulos/) asked me to be a panelist in the Milwaukee Paranormal Conference in September: I said “Yes.” As part of this event, I’m also being given a vendor table so… this is all very amazing. Because, at this fine […]
Make Your Fun: Mental Health Is Relative
WELL! What a day I had last week. WEDNESDAY I started last Wednesday with being a midwife’s first patient of the day (absolutely no news to share there) and later had a pharmacist suggest I’m insane. That was funny as the woman ahead of me in line at the pharmacy with people selling drugs right […]
Get It Out: Art Saves
I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]
What Do You See?
This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]
Monday: Electrodes, Needles, Nerves, Static, a Bed and Four Men and an Epileptic Crammed in a Tiny Room
I’m not going to lie. That 👆 sounds like a very messed up porn. Gross. Which is why I don’t feel a lot of people could do an EMG test. Because if you’re not “good with” needles, or have an issue with claustrophobia or with being electrocuted, or being essentially naked on a bed in […]
Curs-ed and Coping
Yeah, so it’s that really terrible time of year for me. The Death Anniversary time of year… oddly, my family died or were born in the first couple weeks of March. And my crisis of confidence continues as I was recently told for the nth time I’m “overqualified” and “will leave after a month” if […]
Hey Brain Wars Subscribers… Got a Minute? 😺
TOMORROW (THURSDAY 3/3/21) IS PITCH MADNESS! Otherwise known at #PITMAD. And I am once again pitching my graphic memoir WHAT DOESN’T KILL YOU MAKES YOU WEIRD AT PARTIES. UPDATE: Thank you so much for your help! Special shout out to Naomi, Gabi, Meredith and Jesse. Here are tomorrow’s pitches: #1 Diagnosed w epilepsy at age […]
Brain Update: To Fall or Not to Fall
“Are you afraid of falling?” “No.” The neurological specialist nodded thoughtfully and I redirected my thoughts to reflect on how “Stephen Hawking” fell a lot in the beginning of the movie The Theory of Everything. ☹️ The reason for this rant is how I went to the dreaded appointment with an ALS specialist because I […]
Helping: A Dark Art
I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
Dead On My Feet 🦇😺 and I Hear the Four Horses Are Warming Up… Just in Case (Election 2020)
If you follow this little blog, you’ll know I coped with rather terrible medical news a few weeks ago by focusing on how this year I’d be hosting a Vampire’s Dinner Party on Halloween night. IT HAPPENED! This orphan finally used my parents’ Noritaki China dishware, glassware and silverware which years ago I salvaged from […]
Being a Vampire Host: A Special Halloween Blog
Oh my my my my. If All Hallows’ Eve wasn’t falling on a Saturday this year and if the couple I had been envisioning weren’t magically available for this year’s Saturday Halloween four course vampire-hosted dinner… I would be feeling somewhat crushed by life. I know, join the club. But the usual stuff plus the […]
MENTAL HEALTH Requires … Listening to Bauhaus in My Creepy Basement with My Friend Chair
I AM FINALLY GETTING A CHEST X-RAY AND ALSO BLOODWORK! 🙌 Wooooohooooooo!!! I am so old and decrepit I regard this as a major accomplishment. I remember when winning an award or finishing my degree gave me the same sense of accomplishment. It’s a bit sad but… how does it go? Life is what happens […]
Life After
My mind is taking things into its own hands lately. I think this because on Tuesday I had some epileptic twitches in my face and through my fingers which aren’t supposed to happen. The electricity is breaking free. Oi. So I think my mind took care of that because I slept so deeply Tuesday night […]
Remembering Winter and My Smashed, Broken Robot Friend
Living in Wisconsin, everyone is on their last legs by the time March rolls around due to the intense and extended darkness and cold. Stiff and frozen, we idealize warmer temperatures and dreamily look forward to grilled food, sunshine, fresh air, backyard parties and summer activities. Of course, this year none of that has been […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Coping: a Frustrating Revolutionary Reality
Yesterday, my husband David received a NEGATIVE! result for the free coronavirus test we took last Friday. So that’s great. However, since we took our tests at the same time at the same place… it felt weird I did not receive my test result when he did. First my sense of humor and #1 coping […]
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