Dexters Are Motherflipping EVERWHERE!

I figured I needed to put together a light-hearted blog. So you consider a fictional serial killer “light”? Yes. Have you seen Dexter? In any case, I just got done reading twenty years of neurologists’ reports on me because I dumbly logged into my medical records database to find this lovely summary and… to read […]

Well… Happy Holidays and half flags…

I live in Milwaukee, Wisconsin which has been making headlines lately for terrible reasons. Specifically, a person plowed their SUV through a holiday parade in a Milwaukee suburb, murdering 6 people and hurting over 60 individuals – many in critical condition and hospitalized. From talking with beloved family members from my three families (husband’s, my […]

To Mastiff or Not To Mastiff

My epilepsy is stretching… Uh-oh. The fact that I’m aware of it stirring is alarming because it’s difficult to do under the cloud of medication I take to keep it still so, when I can sense its movement… I used to tell friends I was “happy” about having epilepsy because it served as a kind […]

The Hallmark Movie Has Begun… Will It Turn Into a Shudder Movie… STAY TUNED! 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

What the hell am I going on about now? THE ANSWER We GOT AN ACCEPTED OFFER ON A HOUSE THIS WEEK! So I’ve talked about how I’m relentless/resilient… something terrible happens and I just keep going and act like it was nothing. Just keep going… don’t let anyone get an edge on you… stay upright… […]

Halloween APPROACHES: Dead Things Up North

Well, we had our mini break in northern Wisconsin and I had promised to report back on the Halloween situation there. Halloween Up North Status It wasn’t awesome. It didn’t rank on the Halloween meter. At the same time, Hayward, Wisconsin was largely rednecks so that was indeed terrifying (there were also super nice non-redneck […]

My Own Private Shit Show: The Art of Coping

This week’s blog is focused on the events of my daily life and how I’m using perspective to prevent them from driving me completely insane. Letting Your Car Go We paid off our car. Which means we’ve given it permission to completely fall apart. You’re free, Marshmallow. While a mechanic was trying to figure out […]

The Darkness

There are some nights – tonight and last night – where I think “I’m just going to bed. This day has felt too terrible too long and it simply needs to end. Here’s to tomorrow.” But then tomorrow comes. And it feels the same. My fucking IUD removal (or Mirena crash which many doctors deny) […]

Milwaukee Paranormal Conference! 👻

When my amazing, award-winning journalist/writer friend Tea (check out his latest book which I highly recommend: https://thebookselfblog.wordpress.com/category/tea-krulos/) asked me to be a panelist in the Milwaukee Paranormal Conference in September: I said “Yes.” As part of this event, I’m also being given a vendor table so… this is all very amazing. Because, at this fine […]

One House We Will Not Be Buying 👻…

Hi there. Two weeks ago I didn’t know if I could continue this blog because I got a real job. And the last two weeks have been crushing, overwhelming and crazy stressful, and it’s been trial by fire and I’ve been thrown into the deep end but… I haven’t drowned yet. Yet. I’m slowly, painfully, […]

Ask a T-Rex

Really though. What the hell can you do. I asked my friend Rex this question. His answer now and always is: “Kill and eat it.” While effective as a comprehensive life approach back in prehistoric times, this was not the suggestion I needed which would help me now in these modern times. Also, I’m pretty […]

Get It Out: Art Saves

I just got news that a rather big happening which was going to change life as my husband and I know it is probably no longer happening. It was all probably not but maybe happening… then definitely happening… and now… probably not happening once again?! Life, man. It’s a real thing. Before that ambivalent-yet-leaning-towards-bad news, […]

What Do You See?

This post is about death, grief, loss, unexplained happenings and also murals… Fair warning and, if you’re here for the murals, just scroll down to the end. The Context/Background So I wrote a ghostly storybook ⬇️ And in this book I summarize all the scary, unexplained and sometimes magical stuff which happened when my husband […]

The Fantastic Curse of Epilepsy

I recently had the pleasure of reading a friend’s poetry memoir regarding his experiences with epilepsy. He supplements his poetic verse with evocative photographs, and it’s creative, honest, authentic and thought-provoking. Since he’s the second person I’ve recently read about who has broken their jaw (or general “face area”) in a seizure, it made me […]

Curs-ed and Coping

Yeah, so it’s that really terrible time of year for me. The Death Anniversary time of year… oddly, my family died or were born in the first couple weeks of March. And my crisis of confidence continues as I was recently told for the nth time I’m “overqualified” and “will leave after a month” if […]

Brain Update: To Fall or Not to Fall

“Are you afraid of falling?” “No.” The neurological specialist nodded thoughtfully and I redirected my thoughts to reflect on how “Stephen Hawking” fell a lot in the beginning of the movie The Theory of Everything. ☹️ The reason for this rant is how I went to the dreaded appointment with an ALS specialist because I […]

Helping: A Dark Art

I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]

Going to Prison

Well, I was called back for a second interview for one of the two Education Director positions I had interviewed for the week before. I’m going to tell that story this week because my brain is consumed by thoughts of this role and as such I am incapable of thinking about anything else. A bad […]

HIT AND RUN BUT STILL NOT DEAD 💪

Well Monday didn’t go as I had hoped. Does Monday ever go as anyone hopes? I dropped my husband off at work and soon after set out to Oak Creek for a long awaited appointment with my neurologist. I was dreading it as I haven’t seen her since she ordered all the tests and I […]

Being a Vampire Host: A Special Halloween Blog

Oh my my my my. If All Hallows’ Eve wasn’t falling on a Saturday this year and if the couple I had been envisioning weren’t magically available for this year’s Saturday Halloween four course vampire-hosted dinner… I would be feeling somewhat crushed by life. I know, join the club. But the usual stuff plus the […]

When You Get the Results You Really Really Really Didn’t Want

For those of you reading this, I want to thank you for being a small audience for my survival memoir writing. In contrast to social media, having a blog is like having an audience who mostly want to be there. I’m sure a few of you just logged off because you’re all ohshit I can’t […]