I’m one of those people who feels compelled to help other people. If I don’t feel like I’m helping other people, I feel as if I have no purpose. And this is why I often have had jobs which paid very little money because helping people is not what people do to make money. In […]
Tag: music
A Prison of Possibilities
Welcome to 2021… in risk of overusing the same material, this IT Crowd gif perfectly represents how I’m feeling about 2021: Yesterday, I sat down to take a break in my Monday routine which involves doing last week’s laundry and the weekly domestic hard-clean of our apartment. I figure that, if I’m not making any […]
Happy New Year! 🏴☠️🏳
For us, it’s still 2020. Feeling a bit bored and also somewhat doom and gloom However, we have a plan. 🎃 As it’s a pandemic and also because we are old, my husband and I decided that we are going to get dressed 😬 and drive to the grocery store (we have a gift card […]
It’s Happening! It’s the END!!!!!
Wellity, wellity. 2020 is coming to an end. Hypothetically. There is still time for the world to end before 2021. But hopefully that won’t happen. After all, we each likely have hard-wired high, misguided hopes for the new year. Because we have to. Survival requires a little hope, sporadically and strategically spread out over our […]
HIT AND RUN BUT STILL NOT DEAD 💪
Well Monday didn’t go as I had hoped. Does Monday ever go as anyone hopes? I dropped my husband off at work and soon after set out to Oak Creek for a long awaited appointment with my neurologist. I was dreading it as I haven’t seen her since she ordered all the tests and I […]
SYSTEM ALERT: Is What Happened to My Mom Going To Happen To Meeeeeeeeee?
Why have a blog if you can’t use it to openly discuss the potential manifestation of your absolute worst fear? 😺 Yeah. This is the blog post I really avoided writing and here it is. In this post I’ve tried to bedazzle my worst fear and all my fretting and freaking out with pictures and […]
Music Is Medicine But Accessing It Has Been a Real Lifelong Trick
This week I’ve had to take a mental health break and employ my “music is medicine” mantra. At the same time, taking a break from job applications and money-scheming has caused me to reflect and marvel at the distance my same-age peers (the Oregon Trail generation) and I have traveled in regard to technology because […]
Mental Health and Taking a Break from Human Interaction
Remember when texting became a thing? I have friends who are a few years older than me and they have confided in me that they hate texting and miss talking on the phone. They say this to me in a hushed tone because now talking on the phone is taboo. And they have unfortunately mistaken […]
Right and Wrong, Lies and Truth
Watching the American election results pour in, slowly, and seeing HOW MANY AMERICANS VOTED (yay!) and how all the votes have caused those counting the votes to need more time to tally them… as expected… but also seeing how many people voted for what Trump represents… it sadly surprised me. The Trump folks said “Wait […]
When You Get the Results You Really Really Really Didn’t Want
For those of you reading this, I want to thank you for being a small audience for my survival memoir writing. In contrast to social media, having a blog is like having an audience who mostly want to be there. I’m sure a few of you just logged off because you’re all ohshit I can’t […]
Sometimes You Just Have to Take a Day or Two
Amiright?😺 And if that doesn’t fix what’s wrong you need to move to more extreme actions. I’m currently in between the two stages. And, as long as I’m asking questions, I’ll also query: does anyone else feel like they’re living two lives at once? When I hear the phrase “two lives at once” I first […]
Life After
My mind is taking things into its own hands lately. I think this because on Tuesday I had some epileptic twitches in my face and through my fingers which aren’t supposed to happen. The electricity is breaking free. Oi. So I think my mind took care of that because I slept so deeply Tuesday night […]
Hell Today
I’m not sure if anyone else thinks “Have I gone too far?” as much as I do in regard to really insignificantly small actions. But I do enjoy the thought of my former keyboard’s space bar being in the ninth circle of hell. I never let my inability to draw hold me back either. Yeah, […]
Brain Scans and Your Average Medical Male Monster
Holy cats. This blog post focuses on the monster who was my former neurologist and THE MONSTER CALLED ME WHEN I WAS WRITING THE FIRST DRAFT. Therefore, I have some LIVE ACTION news in this blog post. Exciting! But I’m getting ahead of myself. Right. So I’m an epileptic. Been epileptic since I was twelve. […]
Anniversaries and Holidays Which Evoke All Emotions
When you experience loss, you suddenly have new days to dread. Or celebrate. It depends on how you’re coping with your loss. I honestly don’t know anyone who genuinely looks forward to a death anniversary like “OH WOW IT’S ALMOST THE DAY MOM DIED. I CAN’T WAIT TO CELEBRATE HER!!!” but I’m sure you’re out […]
Rats
Shit happens. When your shorts fall down, pull them up, be grateful to have pants and get on to cleaning up the trash and contemplating what the hell you’re doing with your life.
Remembering Nice Interactions in Scottish Society After Poor Interactions in Wisconsin Society
Usually, if I’m feeling bright and cheery, I try to gather it all up to summon the nerve and will to go out and talk to people. I’m remembering this because I had some pretty upsetting interactions with humans recently as, due to a family emergency, I found myself in a small town in Wisconsin […]
Tired (Wild Animals Screaming into an Invisible Mic)
I’ve been running in place for ten years. And I just realized it. In books, I sometimes see authors compare “a cake walk” to playing the old board game Candy Land. As in, both are smooth/easy/no problem. Well. Candy Land is in fact a brutal board game. Now that I think of it… cake walks […]
Brain Wars!!! 